I did some exploration today. I've been back in Cincinnati for a couple of months now, but have been booked back to back to back lately with different things; I've been out of town every weekend for the past seven weekends alone, if that signifies anything. Haha. So today, I made it my mission to do what I've wanted to since I set foot back in this city: start exploring churches.
Today I visited SonRise, which is just minutes from my house. I ran into some faces I didn't expect to see: one from New Harmony of all places, and some others I've known from various places over the years. The guest speaker was from the Cincinnati Dream Center downtown, and overall it was an experience I liked!
It's a line to walk, I know, choosing a church family and home. Honestly, NO, I do not believe a church is solely a place, a building, or even a group of people. Trust me, I'm not naiive. I know firsthand how all of those things and then some can burn and at times have burnt me into a place of retreat.. resentment.. even complete disdain.. but my belief is that I am not part of a religion, but part of a faith, that starts with me and ends with service to others. It is not a popularity contest or political platform [though they do hold appropriate times and mediums], but a set of core values that I will stand by, regardless of what I'm faced with or challenged to do. It's not easy to stand alone, but it's harder to stand among values I don't have, pretending to agree and then trying to sleep at night. My philosophy is simple: Be kind. Love God. Love Others. Edify. Serve. I'm working on all of those things....So for now.. I search. I would ask you to pray that wherever I am meant to be, that I find it and can plug into it. Honestly, I miss singing, I miss doing design work .. and I miss volunteering in that capacity. *Sigh.
Back at home, I took full advantage of it being Sunday, and made a mission to do as little as possible. I think it's the fact that I've not been home on a weekend in nearly two months that made it so easy to laze around on a beautiful day [in hindsight, I didn't even think to do exactly this on the river in a kayak.. but there will be plenty of time for this].. I'm just thankful.
You'll have to pardon what I realize was just an entirely disconnected slew of thoughts... it's been a long week and while I feel refreshed now, I can feel the edge of weighty decisions in a few arenas creeping in on me again and my mind is all over the place. No need to worry, but we'll leave it at that for now and I'll sort it out piece by piece. (:
Tomorrow = Monday = new work week = feeling... determined.
G'Nite (:
xo | cmd


























