Weird Tuesday

I'm getting old.

I woke up today absolutely exhausted; the "late night" I had last night with Ali & Marianne in Nashville took more of a toll than I'd anticipated. I seriously didn't think I was going to make it to work on time [I did...], but somehow I pulled off an entire day without passing out. I think.

HOWEVER, I did see this as soon as I turned the first corner in my neighborhood:

hello again, beautiful life... 

Early reminder that I had in fact risen to another day, which means that I'm alive, healthier than some, richer than most, blessed with the eyes to see a sunrise, a job to warrant my driving into one every morning, friends I can tell about it, and a little girl who can paint one that's even better. So yeah... life's good.

That's important to remember on days like this. I'm pretty sure the breakdown I had this evening was prompted by a combination of sleep deprivation, along with the fact that I miss Sydni more than I could explain in any reasonable amount of time. I'm pretty sure I'll be getting her this weekend for the next few weeks; as soon as I know that for sure, that will be settled.... but in the meantime, yeah.... 

* Insert embarrassing unraveling, complete with all the tears, sobbing, sniffling and sniveling of one of these fits. I pulled it together within a few minutes, but for some reason I got overwhelmed at no notice and broke into a spasm of human emotion. Awesome. * 

Luckily for me, I have a dog who apparently is a people-whisperer, and after agreeing to the new harness & tag I found for her [surprisingly cooperative, actually], insisted on cuddling quietly into my leg for the rest of the night. More than that, I have a boyfriend who didn't miss a beat during my meltdown, and gave me both that perfect amount of space I needed in the midst of it, then followed up with a simple but much-needed hug. Crazy freakin' girl.... I know, I know. You folks out there that have someone like him who can read you so well when you don't even know what you're saying - I know you hear me when I say it's pretty cool (: 

k, mom.. i've got my new harness & i brought you my bone....
... so can i please go play? 

I'd be lying to you if I told you I didn't fall asleep at 6:45 PM. Haha. I told you I was exhausted today. It was a long freakin' day. Oh, and to boot? I didn't have a single cup of coffee today. I know - that seemed like a great thing until I realized around noon that I chose the worst day of this week so far to take a mini caffeine hiatus. Oh well. I think I actually forgot to get it; that's how groggy I was this morning. Womp womp womp....

Wow. SO yeah. It's around 10pm and we are waking up for the 2nd time today. Haha. Old folks, for suuuuure. There's clearly not a whole lot else going on tonight, so I'll leave you with a snippet of meatball [aka Stella] doing dog things in the yard. And no, I don't mean potty things. Cute dog things. Hah..

G'Night...........again, blogbots (: 

xo | cmd